Ending things with my narcissist and choosing me

It’s 02:20 AM, and I’m sitting up in bed, listening to Spotify whilst crying ever so quietly. H.E.R went in on the song Closer To Me and at 1:09 seconds into the song, this queen says “‘cause the whole time you were giving away what should have been my love.” I instantaneously broke the fuck into tears.

Access: Denied! You’re on my blocklist

Last week, while driving home from visiting a “friend”, I noticed how uneasy I felt. My mind refused to settle and my thoughts swirled around like a hurricane in my head. A chemical attack in my brain; so many questions with very little answers. I hadn’t seen this friend in a while and thought I’d reach out l, but the recluse in me always regrets reaching out, especially when people don’t meet my expectations, or worse, disappoint me.

Mom guilt; I hurt my 1 year old’s wrist.

It was just a regular day; Sabali and I went downstairs to collect our Uber Eats. But as this toddler would have it, mom is forever chasing her around. She has this new obsession with running out into the street whenever we’re outside. Instinctively, I grabbed her by the hand and lifted her from the street onto the pavement. The sharp shriek from her cry as I put her down let me know that I had hurt her. Panic set in immediately and I picked up my baby and hurried upstairs. Fortunately, a friend was visiting that day and reminded me to calmly find a solution.